I never really knew what I was doing or why I was doing this to my body. I started at such a young age..I was only 8 and I just felt like I deserved the pain I was inflicting on myself. I felt like since I wasn’t like everybody else, I have no reason to breathe the same air, or go to the beach, or do basically anything. So I stopped interacting with others, I started wearing covering clothes even in 90 degree weather.
I don’t really have an answer to why I started, because at the time I didn’t even know what I was getting myself into